[Verse 1: Android]
I was 14 when my mother kicked my father out
This is when I took my first peek at Satan's slaughterhouse
He told me, your mother ain't letting me back
You the man of the house now, you gotta pick up the slack
I sighed a sigh of relief, this motherf**er is gone
Then I got hit with grief, it's like I lost me a bond
I was still a freshman, still had a couple of friends
But those friendships broke, I thought I was getting closer to the end
The end of nothing, cuz really I never did sh**
I started writing to beats, like who thought this kid could spit
I was just f**ing around, just jotting to be funny
Cooped up in the house, not outside when it's sunny
A call of duty geek, thought I could make some vids on YouTube
But the sh** that rules my life just caught up with me too soon
The sh** I like to call father, a voice inside my head
These thoughts of constant judgment, I wanna crack em until I see red
A thousand eyes always on me, I wished em all dead
Man I was living like a zombie, and then father said
"Listen, these people ain't like you
You had this anxiety sh**, like since you were 2
You just didn't realize, this is who you are
You see that noose hanging, man that's not that far"
But f** that, I got way too much to live for
I wanna see my kids thirteenth, like Millard Fillmore
I wanna blow up, and show the world who I am
And forget about this red b**h with two horns like a ram
But this sh** never stopped, it only got worse
And now I never step outside, I think that I'm cursed
I can't speak in front of people cuz I get red and get the shakes
Going outside results in the worst stomach aches
But these words, i know they something special
Cuz writing's my only outlet from those thoughts that I wrestle
I live in the dark, I feel no comfort when I can see
A hollow man loves when he forgets what he will be
The light shows me truth, but in the ugliest form
I find that traveling down the coldest roads is when I feel most warm