[Hook]
I've been afraid for far too long
Honestly, I've just been holding on
[Verse 1]
It was all to admit that I needed help
When they loved me, but I hated myself
It was ugly, but I made it out
Yeah, thank God, f** this
My life is such sh**, but not really
Not at all, sometimes I drop the ball
And I get sad, but (???)
See everything that I'm blessed with
Missed a lot of sh** that I'm wrestlin'
All this money I invest in, like
When I break even? Or pray to God
This sh** season, put my tools down
And make a livin' with this gift that I've been given
Like look mom, I did it, here but not quite
Not yet, for all the love I didn't get
All the shots that I didn't net
Less than greatness I won't accept
My stock is risin' you should invest
I made mistakes, got my own regrets
Burned a lotta bridges, learned a lotta lessons
And my adolescence, and all the pressure
Had me stressin' struggled with addiction
And depression, I was naive
Swimmin' in the streams of self-pity
But I believe in the dreams of my city
[Hook][2X]
I've been afraid for far too long
Honestly, I've just been holding on
[Verse 2]
If you want them to believe in you
Let them know what it means to you
This my life, all I ever wanted
That's why I write, let me express my appreciation
For those who are being patient
With my creation, being a combination
Of hesitation and complication
Lyrical medication of revelation
These words'll do me some preservation of life
Poetry's my child and I'm raisin' it right
With an obligation to fight
For what I know in my heart to be right
In this time of darkness, maybe I can be the beacon of light
God gave me many reasons to write
Some people think I'm a lyrical prodigy
But I've never focused on what anybody thought of me
I'm just a kid on a spiritual odyssey
Here to be what I oughta be
Letting' it all outta me, and people still doubted me
But I'm just takin' my time, for all of my heart
I'ma be just fine
[Hook][3X]
I've been afraid for far too long
Honestly, I've just been holding on