[Hook: Auriel & Denei]:
Until I see you again
You're on my mind until I see you again (x4)
[Intro: Amarii talking]
Ya know, sometimes I feel like I gotta be...I gotta be metaphorically naked to folks. I gotta show y'all how I live, how I am, who I am. That's the only way to connect to you. I heard it from Jay-Z in a dream. So let me give y'all something...about me
[Verse 1: Amarii Davu]
Tryna focus on all my highs
Though these n***as want my lows to
Make me not survive
With the spirit of Lesane, X, and Martin
Let these words carry life
If I'm to perish and die
Utter words to leave these lames in early graves
If music is my religion, unto Yeezus I would pray
But he can't save me though
When I face them gates
Or them eternal fire blazes
Chasin' dreams of higher places
Racin', to a timer set by a higher power
At times I question will I ever reach a finer hour
I contemplated pills and nooses, I can't die a coward
Carved the word, "Why", into my wrist
'cause me and love have sour, sick
Twisted, and bitter emotions
Mask the pain with masquerades
And escapades with the 40's, shawty
Smile, that's what they tell me
Appreciate the joy and pain even if you helpless
Hey
[Hook]
[Amarii Davu talking]
Yea. This just a lil' preview of everything. Let me go a little deeper with this one. Hold on. Check me out
[Verse 2: Amarii Davu]
Used to steal out my momma's purse
Til I realized that's the last woman I should hurt
But she definitely won't the last
Trail of tears left by my ex's in the past
Infatuated by the biggest breast, the next a**
Complicated with communication don't ask
'Cause I'd rather not tell
Once cursed God and ever since I lived hell
Doubt he forgave me, on my knees I knelt
Oh! Used to handle pain with mary jane
Lying to my folks when they know I ain't the same
I lost fifty pounds going damn near insane
I lost the same amount in trust, love, and friends
Cause sh** changed
Uh, I knew I'd make it through somehow
But back then I couldn't even figure out how
Hey! Smile that's what they told me
Live yo life like it's golden like yo momma's oldies
Young n***a
[Hook]
[Amarii Davu talking]
I ain't got a reason to fabricate nothing, man, this is true. This is how I feel. Like...I feel like I gotta show my experiences man...like...you know what? I need y'all...I need that beat to loop around one more time right quick. I need time to think. What should touch on now? Should I touch on my Pops. I love you Pops. Gotta touch on it though. Feel me out one time
[Verse 3: Amarii Davu]
I dish dirt 'cause dirt help sh** grow
The applauses just water for this concrete rose
I went from...highs to mediums to lowest of lows
Reaching out to seeing many doors close in my nose
To be the king of pharoahs, ha, dreamiest flow
Defeated the foes, the odds
Like not having my Pops
He was scared to let his little prince see him on rock
I ain't ashamed, I understand, and I love him a lot
Had many teachers tell a n***a I was bound to be shot
Now they look back at me, they frown or they shocked
I got the key to life, if not, I guess I'm pickin' the lock
I kick in the spot, I rob it all, the kitchen, the pots
I spit what I watch and live and then I try to give it you
Hope you receivin' what I'm bleedin' as the deepest of truth
They told me smile, now I smile, and I seldom complain
Life, the beautiful struggle, the joy and the pain, baby!
[Hook]
[Outro: Amarii Davu talking]
So hopefully...these 16's hit you somewhere where it hit me. Hopefully you can see a lil bit deeper into who I am. You can feel my heart. You can feel my soul, man. That's all I'm doing. Khepri