I always feel like i'm f**ing up
Every time i try i f**ing get stuck
My mom always told people stories on how as a daughter i s**
But when i am victorious she won't care she only acknowledge my mess up
It sad to wake up everyday and have nothing to look forward to
All i can really do is pray and hope that god is listening who
Am i to say that i really hate the color blue
Well that how feel'and this feeling is real
I feel like a nobody trying to be somebody
I try not to f** with bullsh** but i realized bullsh** f** with anybody
Everybody that really cares for me dies like my granddaddy
Sometime when people hurt me i laugh like it comedy
I really really wish that i had a different family
A family who would show there love for me unconditionally
Naww i regret saying that i feel sorry that a wrote that stubbornly
But at least i understand why some n***a turn to robbery
My life is f** up i can't flow with this type of harmony
Only god knows why i'm alive this feeling just happen suddenly
I'm insecure sometime i cry for my father he homeless
Sometimes i pray for my mother she going
Through men after men because she sick of loneliness
People judge me all the time but yet they never seen the real me
It funny rapping about my life shows me things that I've never see
It gonna be hard to click save and not delete this sh** but i'm ma let it be
I got tired to the point where i'm like f** romance
I'm to the point of shutting down i feel like i can't no longer stand
I'm sick to my stomach it hard to remember gods the man
He relief my pain cause only he can understand
I hope i'm not treated differently because of the sh** that
Happen to me and my family
But i have to post this or i'll never let it go
People always ask my age but i never tell i never show
My reason for is i'm not trusting no one no more
Except god that the man i trust he never let me down
He the main source that pick me up off the ground
He the reason i'm posting this cause i gotta let the pain go
Well that my life this is what i f**ing go through
It hurt me to say but everything i wrote was the f**ing truth
It crazy how no matter what i do but that is just that
But im okay with it and also im done with this f**ing rap