[Intro: AC Lane]
If only you knew
If only you knew
[Verse: AC Lane]
If only you knew what I've been thinking
In my pool of thoughts, might fall off in the deep end
This rap sh** is like a dream, I just pray that I sleep in
Truth of the matter that it's hard when your dreams end
And you wake up, life still going on
Try to stick to the pa**ion, but life still going on
I'd be ducked up secluded, elusive
But truth is, gotta make sure everything's good with Mom
And the family, and bro is still proper
I could try to heal the wounds, should've schooled to be a doctor
But things change, it's too late for that now
Ask me what it's like to have your whole world crash down
I feel like kanye, begging for a spaceship
To takeoff these raps and get them out of the basement
But I know that's far fetched, I don't need the cars, jets
I know what I really need isn't in the cards yet
Recognition, for what I presented
Rapped since 13 and now I begin to resent it
Because I used to view this sh** as therapy
Now I think it's one of the reasons why I should be sitting in therapy
Went from a stress reliever to applying the pressure
But when you follow your dreams gotta ride with the extras
But when you receive the negatives and the positives are absent
It's hard to continue on even though you've got all of the talent
And put it in all the practice,and you ain't still get drafted
I mean might throw this track away, I'm just rough drafting
I mean I might as well get rid of it, it's just me venting
But my bro slim would say that this the Lane that we been missing
But have you ever felt so close to tappin out?
Like you're trying to fight your demons but you're so close to blacking out?
Me right now, I've got a queen right now
Held me down so long that she deserves a ring right now
But we, often argue, then other women talk to
Me, and maybe I should do my thing right now
She could leave at any minute, and the time be wasted
So you need to go get in somebody's jeans right now
What if after being faithful, she tells you it's over
Spoken word from the devil that's on top of my shoulder
But the angels keep my mind on track
Saying you got a good girl so nevermind all that
But back to the music I don't want to see the crew break
Sometimes it feels like some of them are too fake
COA I created the movement
But sometimes it feels like COA ain't f**ing with the music
Ironic I know, just being honest, I know
I ain't losing my mind I'm on top of my toes
And I always stayed on top of my flows
Thought we could eat together, but they got it to go
Oh word,and that's not Slim or Jake Twice
End of the night, gotta make sure that I ate right
They know I'd put the team up on my back though
They know, they don't even gotta ask bro
They know, that I got the most heart in it
They know, I'm the reason why we started it
And that's why I'm the leader of the team
But it's hard if we ain't all seeing the dream
I rap, engineer, and do my videos
Promote, but I wouldn't mind help from the city though
I can't do it all on my own
Ain't just another rapper, I prove that with my songs
Trying to get right, I prove that with my wrongs
And, lately I've been feeling out of my zone
And, me against the world I'll combat them alone
So I, removed a lot of contacts out of my phone
[Hook: AC Lane]
Gotta remove unnecessary people
That's a necessary evil
Some people they gotta live illegal
That's a necessary evil
Sometimes there's no one to speak to
That's a necessary evil
Sometimes you gotta give up your dreams too
That's an unnecessary evil