Allenym - Rat Race lyrics

[Verse 1: Allenym] The clock ticks, and i'm still walking, don't give a sh** But your still talking, what don't you get, i don't chill often No options, i couldn't dream of it Hate that i'm jaded, who do i play in the scheme of it Tell me what my meaning is, i gotta know Cus without purpose, i'm a murder without the crow I'm burning about to blow, i can't handle it I get manic, can't stand it i'm panicking The titanic never touching land again's the land i'm in Blind back flip off the tramp, and then hope i'm landing it Walk a lonely road, live a life not even homies know Think you know me? no, no direction, i only flow So-sew me closed, i got a wound in my brain Its confusing like i'm choosing to be losing the game My music insane, a drug that i induce in your brain My own therapist, the medicine reduces the pain [Chorus x2: Allenym] And the wheel keep spinning Running so hard, stuck in the same spot that i started And the wheel keeps spinning But i'm never moving, whatever i'm chasing i'm bout to lose it [Verse 2: Allenym] Getting dizzy now, Still a lot of things i need to figure out Like why is she the only thing i give a sh** about Its f** rap, f** this, f** that How come that nothing i really f**ing actually want happens Its irritating, my own failures infuriating Need to act now, cus in the past i been merely waiting I'm still debating a way to get off track Escape the ball and chain, n start carving my own path Depart from my old past, get off of these med pills Another day on this treadmill and ill be dead k**ed I'm dread filled, trying to keep my days the same To stay afraid, till the day i waste away Its safe to say, i'm dwelling on what i could've done My mind stuck on the things i know i shouldn't want But i had it once, and i'm forever indebted My first love, and i can never forget it [Chorus x2: Allenym] [Verse 3: Allenym] Change my ways, todays' the day i awaken fate About time i start planning for my great escape I've lain awake, dissecting my every option Capturing bad thoughts, and practicing how to stop them Lock them and lose the key, and truthfully I wanna look back at me and be like who was he New and improved, People saying who would've knew That that dude outta Idaho would do what he do Something to prove, breaking the wheel off the track Ram into the gla** cage, and i'm making a crack Taking a stand, getting control of my life Done with the flight, my new instinct to fight I see the light, one day ill be named reverend Wheels off of the ground but i stay revving it Slay precedence, you can relay the messages Alacran about to be moving, ill make the best of it [Chorus x2: Allenym]