And now destined to be The last one standing here The past alive to me And mocking hope is all I had In weakness it hides from me And then it infiltrates my heart So wrong to think I had found It was so long since I felt that at all I had dreamed long in days without I had so long wanted something much more Those looks so lovingly caressed My thoughts and still today They scream to me Their sweet warmth moistening my breath I may never get away I crave I hunger And still I leave behind This wreckage in my wake I was not long inside But still savor the taste I'd rather hate myself for failing Than hate my life for never having tried Nothing will fill me The way these pa**ions do The feeling tempts me and warms me So wrong to think I had found It was so long since I felt that at all I had dreamed long in days without I had so long wanted something much more