Alkaline Trio - I Held Her In My Arms lyrics

I'm nodding on the knowledge, That I have been burned, That I'm learning things that I should've already learned, Everyone I already knew, wasn't kind and coy, I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy, I can't even remember, if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to, But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms but it wasn't you I will not k**, the one thing that I love, In this world of wreckage, I look above, I said help me lord, help me understand, What it means to be a boy, what it means to be a man I can't even remember, if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to, But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms but it wasn't you, I'm nodding on the knowledge that I have been burned, That I'm learning things that I should've already learned Everyone I ever knew, wasn't kind and coy, I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy, I can't even remember, if we we're lovers, or if I just wanted to, But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms but it wasn't you I can't even remember, if we we're lovers, or if I just wanted to, But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms but it wasn't you