Alkaline Trio - Ruin It lyrics

I've waited a long time for this life just to ruin it So please don't ruin this for me Yes, I understand this lie, hell, I crossed those T's, I scratched out all those eyes Myself last night when I promised not to fight So this is what I'm looking like these days All grown up and so full of hate But I don't want to let go of my rage 'Cause it's the salt that brings the taste So where am I if you decide that I'm not right? 'Cause I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife? Am I being too careful, does this seem right? Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays? To show what's burned there inside Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light 'Cause I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around I've waited for so long I've waited for so long Spread me out, rake me in This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin And I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around