(alex)Slander - The Last Days Of High School lyrics

She was a curious beauty with an eye on yours truly Saw me on top of the hill and thought "who's he?" Band t-shirts with a denim jacket Half of a haircut Studs and patches Attracted like magnets Had to take action Pulled out the pack and offered me a cigarette With a face like that, I have no objections Take a seat, let's talk for a second And so it began, the after cla** chats She makes me confident And I make her laugh She thinks I'm crazy And I think she's cute But I didn't think enough She was right, I'm a fool I was too young, thoughtless, ignorant, and cruel She was too accepting of the fact That I was wasting the days that we could have spent together in heaven Pretending she was anything less than perfection She was an earth-bound angel born without a halo And I'm starting to think that I may have aimed low The soul is in pain and it wants me to say no The mind is insane and it wants me to lay low If I could bide my time and ride this disguise She'll never realize that I'm truly insatiable Because the attention I'm getting It tends to fend of the depression and it keeps me stable I'm gonna be %100 A-okay someday When the paink**ers take hold But at the moment I'm just hoping That this broken soul is still in need of a shoulder So I took her hand and I asked her to dance She was wrapped up in another mans plan Told me to wait and she'd give me a chance But the next day the man left and never came back Now she's gone and I wonder if she misses me I've never felt so flooded with insecurity I'm sure she thinks about us just as much as me Because everyday I'm on this damn bus with an empty seat She's strong She'll heal eventually It won't be long before she starts to move on I'm here to help her get past this regression Maybe this time i'll leave my positive impression When the arms of obsession loosen their grasp I'll be right here to take you up by the hand I'll be right here to help you deal with the past I'll be right here to help you sort out these facts Because I was by your side the day your heart died Saw it k**ing you inside so I helped you get by Summer was long and the tears ran dry Now the pain is gone and it's my time to shine Winter arrived and the hopes were high But I heard today you're with a brand new guy And I'm left wondering why am I the second in line Was I the only one trying this whole time? When did you forget about those restless nights When I lied to your parents and you slept in my bed It makes me feel like you just needed a place to go And I was the only guy too nice to say no Ya know what? f** it Guess my head's a mess again Looks like I'd better patch and mend The wound so it won't infect and then Leave me without any friends Stranded on this planet with my sorrow If I'm lucky god will reach down and crush the shell I borrowed Forget my body, I don't need it to keep thinking Just leave me arms and bottle so I can continue drinking Give me a wall to stare at it and I will learn to care for it Love it when it needs me and hate it when it leaves me I'm not proud but sadly it's reality I act strong but I need you so badly I'm not proud but sadly it's reality I lied, all I think about at night is you leaving me Waking in a cold sweat Eyes filled with salt And all I wanna do is roll over and give you a call But it's late and you're probably sleeping Dreaming about the dead So Imma tough this one out and go back to bed