(alex)Slander - For Her lyrics

I should have seen the blood on her hands When she pa**ed me that blunt Or the look in her eyes every time we made love But no I was too consumed by the essence of her presence Hoping that my fate Would never take me from this time and place Now the fruit is rotten from the core out With me caught inside Trying to find the f**ing door out But I can't see through your smoke screens Put your walls down and open up to me How come every time I try to tell you that your'e beautiful You come back by telling me that I should be more truthful And how come every time I try to tell you that I love you sh**, you're not even listening to me And How come every time my friends tell me "Yo, your b**h gets down." I wanna say "f** you For tryin' to knock me down off my cloud!" You know that you can't But I'd like to thank you anyway for trying to be my friend (Chorus) I hope your walk to hell is a long one So you can take the time to think about where you went wrong I hope your fall from grace lands you in a place Slightly better than where you really belong I hope you hear this And I hope you know everything You sacrificed for some greasy f*ggot with a lip ring I hope you trust him And I hope he's being honest When he leaves you at the alter with a 14karrot broken promise Ya know, often I wonder what I did to deserve this I know I'm not perfect But it's not on purpose I gave her everything that I had And all I got was a knife carved out my heart Stabbed in the back The least that I ask is you act like you give a sh** God knows I'd do anything to save this relationship I won't admit it But she's everything I wanted Because it's been f**ing years And I'm still f**ing haunted Like every little aspect Her scent to her name I've dated other girls but it's just not the same Do you even begin to comprehend The amount of damage you accomplished on my brain? In that short time you managed to knock me off my high horse I got back on my feet Unlike you I wasn't too proud to admit my defeat Which is the worst part to me Because I know what you could do If you could only see inside yourself what I saw in you (Chorus) And over the years she collected some bones And then she left me at the bottom of that slippery slope So I crawled my way to the top where I sit pridefully And silently, I always wished that you were here beside me Trust me when I say you tore my heart out my chest But I know that for a while you were trying your best So I guess that's how I'll remember you in the end But until then, I never f**ing want to see you again I hope your walk to hell is a long one So you can take the time to think about where you went wrong I hope your fall from grace lands you in a place Slightly better than where you really belong And when you get back Yo, just give me a call Maybe we can get together and talk about it all Because it's been a couple years and I'm starting to heal But I just really need to sit down and tell you how I feel