Ajay "Po" P. - Doubt/ When I'm Gone lyrics

Doubt [Verse] Lately I feel like the weights on my shoulders I don't have enough strength, depressing Where am I going? Why am I stressin'? I need some answers, pardon my questions I've started reflecting Sat with myself and confessed that I feel Like I've hardly invested It's hard not to mention, thoughts infliltrating My mind in that case, I should guard my perception I hate all these doubts, stick to the plan Food drive from Apple, I showed 'em iCan Didn't get my OSAP, they owe me a grand I'll probably use that, to grow and expand Instead of some textbooks, I don't even open Ain't that I'm dumb, I just know when to focus Not for a cla**, that can't grab my attention Only a few understand my intentions My dad is expecting success out of me I learn but sometimes, they forget how to teach They take out your eyes Then they complain at the fact that the people Forget how to see Man I can't be a number Don't do statistics Present to offer, they told me I'm gifted for sure They told me I'm gifted, no bow I took a different route I get to pick the route I have a hint of doubt I just can't figure out Don't know what this about I am a seed that was meant to sprout Even through concrete, no matter conditions I wasn't born to tap into submission No, no, no, no Oh, no, no, no, no Doubt is on my mind Same thing all the time I just want what's mine Everything that I've earned But sometimes I just feel like They're better than me Don't convince them You should tell it to me I'll believe it, yeah Think I need it When I'm Gone [Verse] Aye, man This that Yeah, it's that This that Aye, yeah This the story, hope that you relate It's crazy cause you don't know What I've been through to date I'm honest, ain't from the, trap And I ain't movin' weight That's why I don't yell it out Until I'm blue in face, straight This is just another obstacle to pa** In my rear view, as I'm looking through the gla** You don't wanna see me shine on 'em Don't make me put a timer on 'em For a second let's rewind on 'em Back when I was just a kid I always knew that I'd be something big Just so you know what the f** it is Never got the time of day Now they ask a couple times a day But look I can't just give my time away What you thought it was? I ain't him no more Come correct, cause you can't Hit me on a whim, no more Outside lookin' at the people That ain't in, no more This is really how I live I can't pretend, no more [Hook] We do this sh** on our own f** wit' me now, like I told you to Don't hit me up when I'm gone We just do what we supposed to do And I know That you gon' need me to be down for you When I go, aye No [Hook: Continued] That's not how all this work Friends don't love you till the strangers do Soon as the blessings come down They wanna act like they prayed for you And I know That you gon' need me to be down for you When I go No