After Forever - Blind Pain (Aggressive Version) lyrics

Music: S.Gommans / L.v.Gils / F.Jansen / L.v.Gerven / A.Borgman / B.Maas Everything keeps getting worse The terror at home, the dread at school I mustn't count on much support I'm still locked out, it's up to me How to face the teasing and the pain Hate, one thing we have in common Play your game Beat me, hurt me A physical release for mental pain Don't make me explode in your way This is a chain of torture A line of pain No other way to show how you feel This is the rebel in her, the torment from him The absence of help, the mothers care Rage, it burns all around us Blind pain So abuse is only weakness It feels more like a cry of distress An act of incapacity Feel the threat Feel the oppressed ambience Of having no place to go No one who'll take care of my salvation This is a chain of torture A line of pain No other way to show how you feel This is the rebel in her, the torment from him The absence of help, the mother's care Here comes the finel episode of terror and pain Abuse and hope Here comes the fight between us all A fight between a love long gone I'm to blame, but it's their own blind pain (Mother) Now look where you and your selfish ambitions have gotten us! It's never been worse! You gotta work, work work, come back without Even noticing me or that ignorant kid of yours! You only think about Yourself (Father) I only think about myself, it's me again? You self-centered b**h! You're the one complaining all the time, but when that kid freaks out, who's Supposed to take care of her, huh?! Besides, it's not my child! Wasn't it ours Our little 'saviour' of a love we never had? A f**ing... (Mother) Yeah, there is no 'us' anymore, darling! Ever since she was born And I was left at your apparment raising her, I think about all I ever dreamed Of because of 'our' decisions! We both should have made compromises But the only one who did was me! (Father) Oh, there you go again! You feel awfully sorry for yourself; why Don't you take a look at my side of the story for once? (Mother) Ah, yeah sure, 'your side'... well, excuse the f** out of me for being In your way! A child you never wanted, living in a smaller house than you've Ever dreamed of, and all the while I'm getting old and ugly, right? You must really long for somebody young and fresh, or if this means already... (Father) Enough!! Don't you dare accuse me of being unfaithful! That's How you ruined my loyalty; I can't believe I once fell in love with a... (Mother) Oh, neither can I, you ba*tard! Neither can I! And loyal? I dind't Know you're familiar with that word! (Father) There's a lot you don't know, a lot you'll never understand! We've lost contact, baby (Mother) Oh yeah, really? Well, that doesn't seem to bother you. Why don't You just go on? Go, go! Drift off away on that little island of yours and don't Forget to drown on your way to a better life!! (Father) Maybe I will, maybe I will! I'd rather drown than be locked up with Such a freaed up bith and a freaky daughter! I can't believe we're still Holding a conversation about something so stupid!! (Mother) Fine, go! Just GO!! Drown! I hope it'll be slow and painful! (Father) Shut your f**ing mouth! (Mother) a**hole... a**hole!