Acrasia - Chapter IV: Perseverance lyrics

I question myself again Sincerity has reared its ugly head Panic sets in, I can't escape those words I said These doubts are paralysing My mind's devoid of rational thinking It's hard to seize the day when my own nightmare never ends Am I invisible again? They don't listen to anything I say 'Cause these words are just words that just hurt And just turn you against this dying world Don the white gloves of sympathy Let your scalpel rescue me Cut my demons out And turn me into someone else Someone who doesn't strike his feet Who doesn't f** up everything These honest eyes are tired Athena, where did I go wrong? Fear not, child, for you've got heart You'll find your way in time, look north There's beauty laced in all you see Just open your eyes and you’ll be free Every time you find it hard to stand Look above, you'll find an open hand They say that life's a constant grind of try But joy appears with your friends by your side The reaper's beating down my doorstep But I refuse to let him win I'll wage this war on myself daily I'll find the strength to love my sins You've got to stop burning bridges (I'm only being me) Don't disaffect the ones that care (But that's all I do) Just be yourself and lights will guide you home All will fall before your sword(It's so damn hard to try) I courted life but she won't reply