[verse 1: JusThoughtZ] Lord Tryna run from manhood and my reality Blaming my calamity on all of those surrounding me I'm not ashamed of anything I've done that hurts people Useless humanism Using human wisdom hurts people! Despise being debased, but won't desert evil Roaming in a wilderness of lies, tryna discern deceit Profess to know The Way, but can't seem to turn and seek The Feet that trekked this Narrow Path I take Your blow And turn the cheek [Verse 2: Ackdavis] And learn to speak, as if my words are worth the pros I seek When I eat Your words, I'm casting gems that they discern as "cheap" You say the fire is the tester of my worth and heat I believe You're able, so please keep me when the furnace peeks Fervently, I preach to peasants tryna be kings The bee stings in life, are always adding up to three things One, without You we're done Two, this ain't a me thing Three, I need Your grace to come and swoop me under each wing [Verse 3: JusThoughtZ] You're tryna teach me by using Justice to reach me But still I'm tryna break the grasp of Heaven's hold, You can't keep me Despite my broken promises to me, I still believe me Hoping that the idol I've created isn't being idle I hate the fact You make Yourself known Your grace proceeds me But I refuse to read the truth of that within the Bible "Apathetic" towards the Truth, whats it amounting to? Constantly denouncing You Like I won't be accountable [Verse 4: Ackdavis] Their love is counterfeit You're genuine in all of Your attempts You give us lots of discipline with Love to balance it Your holiness is an enigma I can't figure out Men, allowed to choose, but still You choose to watch us live them out And later judge us for our actions and our preferences Not preferring Your suggested pathway to Your blessed bliss Paradise, forsaking woe A pair of dice gangsta's throw And close they eyes, wishing they could make it But can't take the blow [Verse 5: JusThoughtZ] But still I claim to know relentless love But fake repentance, getting visions of my waywardness Crushing Your blood Taking your patience as a waiver to get what I want Because I can't/won't see the faithfulness within Your Son Facing my frustrations while needing a Savior Want to be good so bad, that my bad is good That's the nature of our sin, raised to chase and covet men Lover's of our nothingness I was born with nothing And been nothing since… [Verse 6: Ackdavis] The Holy Spirit put up under tents Of human flesh, and bound by time But time is dwindling to nothingness So this means that what I'm "wanting" has been nothing since I was nothing, in an atmosphere where really nothing sticks And nothing stays the same Newness? It runs from it Old is just a shadow of what used to be, it's coming quick I know nothing is lit inside this dark world of punishment Tryna use our money to persuade you You don't want a cent… [Verse 7: JusThoughtZ] And since there's nothing good I have to offer that is of me I must accept the fact that all my vain and glory's ugly Pain and agony only exist as agents to nudge me Towards the Maker of my soul who grabs the Sword of Truth to thrust me To pierce a heart of stone that turns to flesh To turn to You is to return from d**h To yearn for Heaven, is to learn the steps into the Kingdom Carrying our Crosses, Watching the Beautiful Feet of the One Who brings them Freedom