Ace Grand - Part Three (Solitary) lyrics

Intro: Lets go deep inside the solitary mind of a mad man who screams/ In the dark, evil lurks, enemies see me and flee/ Ill tell you about the trials, tribulations, and the pain/ This war within my brain, the yin, the yang/ Verse 1: I fight my demons with affirmations, give thanks for the pastors praying/ Beneath the hand of God ill make my way through these storms im facing/ Protected by a shield of love, I free my mind with vegas that I fill with buds/ Wishing I could go back to the times I drank to feel a buzz/ Many nights im sleepless in my thoughts, whole time a gold mine inside me, I been digging deep/ Im finding truth, I overthink, feel no security cause hoes can't keep it real with me/ The devils working hard, I know none of these dudes would k** for me/ I struggle expressing love, I hold a grudge, not new to anger/ Swallowed all the d** while doc was stacking funds, im just a stranger/ No f**s to give for a troubled kid/ Im puffin cigs like I don't wanna live, this ain't the way to live/ Hook: My God I pray that you forgive all my mistakes/ Theres no future living in the past, those memories erased/ Im in another state, ive been state to state to state to state/ Ill be home soon, I promise we gon get it straight, I repent/ My only need is for me to be free from my sins, paranoia, depression, and anxiety, please?/ Down on my knees, im not perfect but im worth it/ Aimed my pistol at the devil and his army, closed curtains/ Verse 2: Day and night I don't get faded, I don't fear todays my last day/ When I am alone I don't feel shattered like a gla** vase/ Rarely ever stressed, ciggys don't overflow my ashtray/ Hit my knees and prayed you change it all and met you half way/ Observer of these feelings resting in my heart/ Can't picture love a paradise, I fell for many parasites/ These freindemies in my presence full of toxic energy/ I often smile when reminiscing, many memories living maliciously/ Proof the enemy still lives in me/ Pitching me evils in hopes that I strike, I swing with all my might/ Guilt and shame, its hard to hide it when your purpose in this lifes to love/ And you not living righteous, but you want eternal life above/ I wash my hands, and right my wrongs, and find myself through solitude/ So what is it that's stopping you? im smashing through these obstacles/ Can't live my life complacent with mood swings and hatred, feeling jaded/ Amazed how I made it through all these mazes/ Hook: