Abk - Thoughts of Suicide lyrics

Hey man you alright? No I seen how your ol girl was coming down on you Yeah What happened? Your pops found out you lost that job and sh** mmm-hmmm Well don't worry homey, man parent be like that sometimes, it's like they mad at you because they get old. Just don't go all crazy on me, talking about you going to k** yourself again, alright Yes, in my mind I want to do it but when I pursue it I can't seem to go through it So I'm going to write a song just so you can feel everything I feel when I'm in the mood to k** myself I can't control it, these thoughts of suicide, I'm always dealing with And I know I'm not alone when it comes to this, cause everyday it's like the whole world pissed So f** your attitude and keep your bad mood cause I got one too And I don't give a sh** who you rolling with bring your whole damn crew We'll call it suicide when you messin with a k**a someone's bound to die And it won't be me cause only one's claimin my life is g-o-d [Chorus x2] You ever thought of suicide, you ever thought of suicide, you ever thought of suicide Glad you didn't do it, if you did you wouldn't be here now Are you easily influenced, Does your parents always say that your friends are the reason that you ruint Do you have hate for your boss, to where you wanna catch him alone and pop one off Or is it mental health, where the only problem that you have is with yourself Can someone please explain why it feels so good to cause so much pain With all these thoughts we have, yep it's easy to say to just relax But when you that fed up, only thing in your mind is how deep to cut Because you hate your life and you really don't care And things would be better if you just weren't here So now you ready to go end it all, Instead of thinking of the ones you won't see tomorrow [Chorus x2] [Strict 9] It's nothing nice, got the thoughts steadily running through my head I close my eyes and try to picture if I'm better off dead It s**s to me, the one and only as I sit here by my lonely Separated from the world cause the world is so phony Hear my cries, tell me why when you do it tell them lies You wear a disguise I can see it in your motherf**in eyes It's suicide, last ride if you wanna get inside Shotgun it's your boy and I'm ready to die [ABK] Do people that commit suicide go to heaven? I'm sure everyone has their own theories But I'm a firm believer that if you take you own life Your soul is trapped [Chorus x2]