Abandoning Sunday - Guarded lyrics

I had it all figured out I wouldn't miss a thing I hope you're listening now I hope you hear me And I'm not sure what to say And I don't know how to respond Tell me what to do If I can't be good enough [Chorus] I can't believe I stood so close To where I throw it all away There's nothing for me here anymore And no reason I should stay Break my heart and make it fast Cause it's all already lost Please say something just not that ‘cause I can't feel anything at all [Chorus] I can't believe I stood so close To where I throw it all away There's nothing for me here anymore And no reason I should stay Tell me something I don't know Or I hope I just forgot And I hope he makes you laugh like I never could And that's he's everything I'm not And I just want the truth Is it really all that hard? And you won't get to watch When I fall all apart [Chorus] I can't believe I stood so close To where I throw it all away There's nothing for me here anymore And no reason I should stay Tell me a lie that I'll believe And then maybe I'll forget And I can't be everything you need But I meant everything I said I can't believe I stood so close To where I throw it all away