Sitting here alone at this one stop train station with nothing to keep my mind at bay but the smiles on stranger's faces and the moment when i saw your eyes peering through that frosted window i swear i felt this scarf tighten around my neck and now it seems that i don't even have to try to keep your little mouth shut and you know that i would do almost anything just to hear you scream and break this haunting silence at the top of your lungs but breaking the silence with you is like pulling my teeth out so we are spending this year's holidays alone nothing to keep us warm but the water that burns in our guts and we can count the doves as one by one their lovers fall, crashing into the ground...exploding in the air, as the earth opens up beneath to swallow their empty corpses.