A-Roy - Insecurities lyrics

(Verse 1) I found my heart in this music, what else could I do But craft my art and try to use it, ‘cause the red, white and blue Taught me, that I can have what I want in this country Setbacks ‘cause I'm black, but I never been hungry Back track, about my race most people rarely care Oppression is a thing of the past, it's in yo' head If you claiming that “the man” stopping you from achieving Can't say we all equal, but our chances have increased To be successful, still I feel the pressure from this stress I got my education but it left my a** in debt Worse yet, the job market ain't what you expect With two degrees I barely see Gs from my check The way I was told, get a degree and get the cheese But all I see is people chasing dreams, or plotting schemes To get their money right, maybe I missed my true calling Or maybe just infatuated with a lust for balling… (Break 1) Yo, I've learned that a good life comes from good decision making y'all. How you spend your time? Are you selfish, or do you give back, yo… I'm screaming f** the world ‘cause that b**h lied to me I was supposed to make it big, like I hit the lottery My parents taught me right, my behavior kept it tight I made good grades in school, went to church, stayed home at night I'm banking on the golden rule, ‘cause my heart is golden But my bank account ain't full, in fact that b**h is frozen Known to give the best of me to whoever asks Since a tike I've been that dude that you can call when times get bad Should've been more selfish, cared too much what people thought Myself became an after-thought, and opportunities were lost My life was set up perfect, to live it just for me And no one would be hurt by my decision to fly free Now I see, clearly, 20/20 hindsight And I've prayed sincerely plenty nights That I could just re-unite, damn, with my only real friend And make a living through this music with my pen… (Break 2) Yo as I grow older, the more time I spend thinking about how big the world is, but I realize everybody wants the same things out of life. Question is, how do you get ‘em? (Verse 2) I'm back to praying and reading; I had stopped for a while Wondering if hell is real-it's too hot for me now ‘Cause “hell on earth” is real, I feel you, Hav and P But I believe in Jesus, so I'm searching for my peace While still tryna' get a piece of the American pie Ain't no God in our schools, but government's asking why All our kids are lost, sh**, we lost all our sense More concerned with big business, chasing dollars and cents More concerned with building prisons, no rehabilitation Hate to think where I would be if God wasn't patient If Jesus wasn't gracious, all men need a second chance And kids deserve the right to feel loved by a parent Maybe I'm ranting, but I do my part to make a change Could do more, but I'm still here and I won't stay the same 2011, A-Roy'll make his presence felt I'm terrified to fail, but expect my best until my last breath