A Life Once Lost - Detest lyrics

I have to choose what I detest Either dreaming, which my mind hates Or action, which my awareness loathes I am confused I sit alone in silence To focus more on the way that I am living I am losing you And this place isn't comfortable I retaliate by not speaking So I guess I will lose Detesting both, I choose neither But since I must on occasion Either dream or act I mix the two things together