When i think to myself, and i wonder what ive done to deserve all the pain, that i have inside, alone in my bed, i try not to see what i could have been your new boyfriend, thats just what i want, for christmas this year, ill pray and ill beg i just need you here i just need you right here a small thing, that im asking i just need someone to hold me near, and i need, your arms were holding me tight untill i fall asleep and i cant think of no one else, i miss you so much that i hate myself i think of all the things i should have said but now youre gone and im in pain