0-393-04702-4 - Survivor - Chapter 9 (How To Be a god) lyrics

It's the opposite of a victimless crime. What's most important is you need to put the stickers in public telephones. Try inside dirty phone booths near bridges over deep water. Put them next to taverns where people with no place to go get thrown out at closing time. In no time at all, you'll be in business. You'll need one of those speakerphones where it sounds like you're calling from deep inside somewhere. Then people will call in crisis and hear you flush the toilet. They'll hear the roar of the blender and know how you couldn't care less. These days, what I need is one of those cordless telephone headsets. A kind of Walkman of human misery. Live or die. Sex or d**h. This way, you can make hands-free life-and-d**h decisions every hour when people call to talk about their one terrible crime. You give out penance. You sentence people. You give guys on the edge the phone numbers of girls in the same position. The same as most prayers, the bulk of what you hear is complaints and demands. Help me. Hear me. Lead me. Forgive me. The phone is ringing again already. The thin little coating of crumbs on the veal cutlet is almost impossible for me to get right, and on the phone is a new girl, crying. I ask right away if she'll trust me. I ask if she'll tell me everything. My goldfish and me, both of us are just here swimming in one place. The cutlet looks dug out of a box. To calm this girl down, to get her to listen, I tell her the story about my fish. This is fish number six hundred and forty-one in a lifetime of goldfish. My parents bought me the first one to teach me about loving and caring for another living breathing creature of God. Six hundred and forty fish later, the only thing I know is everything you love will die. The first time you meet that someone special, you can count on them one day being dead and in the ground. The night before I left home, my big brother told me everything he knew about the outside world. In the outside world, he said, women had the power to change the color of their hair. And their eyes. And their lips. We were on the back porch in just the light from the kitchen window. My brother, Adam, was cutting my hair the way he cut wheat, gathering handfuls of it and cutting it with a straight razor at about the halfway point. He'd pinch my chin between his thumb and forefinger and force me to look at him straight on, his brown eyes darting back and forth between each of my sideburns. To get my sideburns even, he'd cut one, then the other, then the first, over and over until both sideburns were gone. My seven little brothers were sitting along the edges of the porch, watching the darkness for all the evils Adam described. In the outside world, he said, people kept birds inside their houses. He'd seen it.