In Loving Memory - Lux Alba lyrics

Life denies me a breath of air I'm alone in this immense sea I have no age, but I'm old My entire life has been so, so short Since I was born I died Every day, in silence Mankind rejected me All my life in the shadows I think I was born To die this day Why should I wait? Why should I live? My existence runs to the white light Now I'm craving for your mercy I want anything from you except one act So, please do not resuscitate me The white light on the sky Grips my soul, my mind I'm flying through the ether I'm reaching to Thy side My trip is ending The (white) light becomes red The devil is at my side Where the Hell am I?