Illogic - Lesson in Love lyrics

Yo It was a beautiful Thursday Sun beaming through my window pane Then a strange rush of emotion awoke me Eyes squint and strain to focus Then I noticed an eerie blanket or tainted feeling Filled my being "life walked me on yo yo string" instinct Beckoning me to call my lady to converse But the responses in the tele-talk stopped the chalk outlining my heart Plan surprise visit Get to the door Listen before I knock Hear a voice laughing With your voice, I wonder who's the visitor I knock and listen for feet pitter patter To the peep hole Scatter away Youthful cat opens doors to say she's not there "Now that's rare," I think But I tell her Ill came by I could tell the lie was k**ing him through his transparent eyes Walking away from the domain My thought plane takes flight Idea after idea floating cause the happenings don't feel right So I grab the cell, dial the digits, say "Hello" She says, "Hi, that was my cousin, I was in the shower when you came by" I was like, "Why'd he say you weren't there?" "I don't know, but where you at?" "I'm going to hit the store for some cigarettes but I'll be back" Gave the dial tone but it still doesn't sit well So I light the tip of my Camel Then inhale Back at the crib, I get there, she's getting ready to bounce I'm like, "Where you goin?" "To see my Aunt that just had a kid I told you about" "Cool, how long you gonna be?" "Just an hour. What, you coming back to see me?" She was hoping I'd say no but I said yes to cause some stress We exchange kisses, "I love you's", she jets and I chill Cause I can't dismiss this discontentment I feel Park in a spot, cloaked by the dark, 20 minutes skip on the clock She comes back, the shock beats my chest, anger fills the rest of me Regretfully, I go to her door, knock and get no answer Evil's eating away at my sanity like mind cancer So I run to her balcony, look in the window and explode Some cat with his lips touching the beauty that I behold? By this time I lost my sanity Climbed up on a 6 foot balcony Love and hate combined by, some weird type alchemy She sees me, stands there shocked and scared She was frost bitten by the ice grill of my stare Dude bounces, she tries to explain, make sense of the lies The pain of my words inflict, burst her heart she starts to cry Thinking of ways for revenge, her tears encourage the rage Internally, I'm an animal ready to shatter my cage She comes for a hug, I tense up, flooding my shirt with pain Looks up with ducts busted, quietly says my name Sits me down on the couch, kisses my neck unzips my pants Thinking of ways to take revenge and she opens the chance Hit it for a nice amount of time, made her cum for miles and miles Pulled up my pants with no words, hit the door looked back and smiled...