Illmaculate - Whatever lyrics

[Verse 1 - OnlyOne] I wanna thank you cause you helped me realize what I couldn't be I can't replace you with melodies of lies I couldn't sing A fallen angel from a velveteen sky with crooked wings The most painful of unhealthy advice you shouldn't think You runnin' away from people, all the while you think you cautious You wanted to play the college life, but I just think you've lost it This alcoholic's mine, no matter what the cost is It's funny, now I draw the line just to watch you cross it I was uncomfortable after a couple of ganders Cause in a troubled manner found it was just a double-standard The lips you kissed have tied knots And raised the question of why she's promiscuous and I'm not But friend or foe, with my pen I sew and try to mend what's broke And love you ten-fold for all the other men that don't I'm fighting monsters that you let in through the back door Past the knight in shining armor that you never asked for [Hook - Sapient] Even if your lips don't move your wounds Speak to me the truth Speak to me the truth Don't think I don't know Even if your lips don't move your wounds Speak to me the truth You need to clean your wounds Don't think I don't know [Verse 2 - OnlyOne] Her wrists are covered, lips conflict with her mother I'm the biggest s**er, crushing just another fixer-upper Covered in face kisses No wonder parents of this smothered rape victim keep me from her at a safe distance I take her heart, and her suffering and pain with it It's back to the gutter to find another stray kitten You don't need me sober It takes all the weight on each of these shoulders for me to not be extremely vulgar But whatever ma, I let her off, I'm better off Will I ever love her again? Well, I never stopped Her life's too s**ual, the cycle is perpetual Final's unacceptable, my timing's unimpeccable I know you hate to live life that way Scared her off, I swear to God I died that day Figured 'how could she be better without me?' That's when I realized - It was never about me [Hook - Sapient] [Verse 3 - OnlyOne] I think of every time you slept with me Why? I can't express it You were wrong and I excessively tried to stand corrected But I let love get the best of me, blind and anorexic I don't blame you for the destiny that I had manifested We shared the knife vertical, no care in life for where to go Fly from where your parents fight, you're scared of heights - vertigo Beautifully I reminisce and burn in your Fahrenheit We used to mutually benefit - we turned into parasites I'm disobedient to your receiving body You're seemingly unappreciative for all the cheating on me Thinking calmly, maybe this just wasn't meant to be From frustration I've been smashing all my mirrors excessively I haven't seen myself in so long, losing my identity I was surprised that she, in fact, had never shared a bed with me In loving you I realized what I am and what I'm not I got over you. That's just a way of saying I forgot But whatever [Hook - Sapient]