Illbert - Low lyrics

[Verse 1: illbert] Are you watchin' this? My fallen stream of consciousness My life's a f**ing constant mess, can't cure it with this rotten s** Litter the floor with condom wraps filled with thoughts of a long-gone ex I wonder how I've gotten this far without any goddamn rest So ponder this, my life's gotten quite ponderous Don't even smoke much now cause I've got so much tolerance It's ominous, I can't imagine things will change You're getting a clear shot at my soul in its f**ing darkest stage So take it, cause I doubt I can make it Spirit's been crushed a million times, now it's your turn to break it I can't fake it anymore, living's become a heavy chore Some people say that life's a b**h but I say an expensive who*e (that I can't afford) What will you condemn me for? Just take your f**ing pick I've forgotten all I know except that my mind's f**ing sick So s** a dick, all you f**ing pricks Who tell me that the way I feel is just because I'm such a wimp Oh wait, I am just a little b**h [Hook: illbert] I'm feeling low All that you need to know Is that no matter what you think this sh** is surely not for show So when you go Please don't lock the door When you return you'll find me unable to leave the floor [Verse 2: illbert] I'd rather fill the shoes of just about anyone else Cause I'm angry at the world, but I'm madder at myself My thoughts eat me alive and burn my skin off with acid Only suitable response is to remain calm and placid I'm made of plastic, don't know how I've lasted Any question that you have I promise I've already asked it Take me to my casket, my stamina is blasted Since I've learned to fabricate happiness with some practice I'm not quite past it, I often relapse Think into thoughts so dark I want to blow off my own kneecaps If you can't see that I'm in need of rehab Not for d**, I just don't know where to find peace at Just like Meshach, Shadrach, Abednego I'm burning in a furnace I'm about to feel my head explode I can't let it go, so please just send me home Don't tell my parents, they love me, I don't want them to know