Ill Poetic - The New Normal lyrics

[Verse 1] And everything was different then After the hospital I told myself I had the chance to live again I'm gonna change this sh** I'm gonna k** the part of my brain where the pain exists You know that part of me that had me left for dead On a hospital bed knowing the infection spread Because of self-medication It couldn't help me then But the beginning of my story helps to tell its end I couldn't figure how to start this I hate that typical introductory rap song Factory wrapped in its over-produced cartilage I want that bone marrow, there's no buffer between us now I've been heartsick So consider this catharsis I moved out of that apartment But took its baggage with me, now something's damaged in me And it's been spreading deeper, a sickness Give the reaper a kiss and lick the litmus The gatekeeper went missing, MIA on a Sunday My demeanor is d**h It's either that or forgiveness, don't forget this The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless I've been swimming in it but no one noticed So I don't need your prognosis [Hook] The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives You stare at the stars, you're losing focus The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed The new normal is hopeless The new normal is hopeless [Verse 2] And everything was different then The possibility of my life being taken but it didn't end Seeing life through a different lens I told myself that I would never lose my grip but then I slipped again Looking at the stars from under the surface Drowning out the noise of the world's circus The paranoia's getting real So don't you tell me how to f**ing feel People think I'm such a popular dude Like, you toured the world making positive moves You should be happy, have some confidence too Keep trying to make a point that they're not gonna prove And I feel overwhelming guilt from it I know I should be happy and I know I should be proud And I hate the fact that I feel nothing And even if it's wrong, I'd do anything to feel something [Bridge] So I don't know if I'll make it the next forty odd minutes But if I don't, f**ing forget it I'm feeling heavy as lead There's poison in the water and a bullet in my head [Hook] The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives You stare at the stars, you're losing focus The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed The new normal is hopeless