Ill Poetic - Gin & Tonic lyrics

[Intro] And she said would it be alright If I got a Rum & Coke I said baby for tonight let's pretend that we're not broke Sick of living in tomorrow should be living in the here She whispered something in my ear and said [Verse 1] I don't see what the big deal is Rum & cokes aren't that expensive Plus I'm paying for the drinks And we've been living codependent We haven't left that couch in seven months Made a date with divinity but she wouldn't make me lunch I was in Boise on a Tuesday when I really saw the future And I realized at that moment I had always been a loser Look what the world did? f** it, look what I've done to me All I do is drink and eat Lay around and f**ing sleep But hey, that's okay Not sure I'll see another day It's like, that's alright There's probably not another life So I use that immaturity to cloud my insecurities And walk around pretending I' m not afraid of uncertainty My actions tell me I don't wanna be alive But really I'm a little kid who's still afraid to die [Hook] All I want is to be happy in this life I got And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop If I would die for them then I should live for them If I would die for them Then I should live [Verse 2] I used to stay up late at night Thinking about my songs Now I fall asleep early from drinking all day long I used to hate the feeling of a Friday night alone Now I'm too embarra**ed of the person I have grown This song's the only person that I'll tell Cuz there ain't no going back Once you tell them you need some help I spent every dollar that could be spent Now I just wonder where the good me went So be good to one another Tell my girl I love her Find a little peace in knowing that I didn't suffer This world is full of beauty This world is for the lovers Remind of the feeling of a childhood summer Remind me of the time before when all I did was wonder The world was still a mystery to me to be discovered Because I don't wanna die Lord I wanna die No I don't wanna die [Hook] All I want is to be happy in this life I got And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop If I would die for them Then I should live for them If I would die for them Then I should live [Bridge] It goes one shot of Seagram's Gin Two parts of Diet Tonic Three's not a lucky charm Four times I've tried to stop it Fifth step's the hardest Cuz six is a lie When seven days a week you're feeling like you wanna die There's eight people that I love Nine times I've made amends Ten years ago I never thought this'd be the way it ends Eleven times for rest And twelve for the month that I climbed into this mess [Hook] All I want is to be happy in this life I got And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop If I would die for them Then I should live for them If I would die for them Then I should live [Outro] I just want Kath to be happy I just want Dad to be happy I want my brothers to be happy I want my friends to be happy My generation to be happy For Mello to be happy Ill Poetic and Charlie to be happy