Ice-t - Dear God Can You Hear Me lyrics

[Intro: Ice-T] I'ma try this I don't even know if this n***a even listens, man f** it [Kryst] Dear God can you hear me? [Verse 1: Ice-T] I spend my life between the light blue lines and loose-leafs Split my time between impressionable minds and true beef Spend my days up, nights up, it's too hard to sleep Look at my face, it's not the one of someone at peace I carry guns and I don't need to, but my mind's so f**ed I see a**a**ins coming out of the rough I keep my doors locked, windows shut, Js down, four pound Waiting on some satans who may think of invading When I do sleep, I dream about pain and unrest About gunfights, and dumb dumbs exploding my chest I see my boys that have died, sitting with me again When I wake, I realize that I lost most of my friends Will my past come back to get me? Will them n***az that we shot come back to wet me? I'm paranoid, it ain't easy when your lifestyle was grimy and greasy I'm trying to make peace with the karma of drama God please believe me! [Chorus: Kryst] Every night I pray, just to see another day [Ice-T] I just wanna live one more day! God I don't know your name I don't know if you're really there or if you even care about me I never trust but you But seems I won't stay alive and I don't know why [Ice-T] I don't even know why! Please give me a sign, dear God can you hear me? [Verse 2: Ice-T] Everyday I try to think that it'd just go away But it would never, this mind f**ings with me to stay Every person that I meet, could be from some pa**ed beef He could be reaching in his jacket for the ratchet, I'm tripping Sometimes I even thought that I'll be better of dead I went to doctors, they stuck rods on the side of my head They said you're fine, doing well, set show on TVs I said I know, but I think somebody is coming for me If they seen what I seen, and been where I been They know that I have committed; the evilest sins If they knew what I knew; and had done what I done They play the wicked knight, and they would trust no one I got the car, girl, cribs, j**els, hatched to the max But my brain is playing war games, I can't relax It ain't easy when your lifestyle was grimy and greasy Trying to make peace with the karma of drama, please believe me! [Chorus: Kryst] [Verse 3: Ice-T] So I tried to get my life right and teach the youth I did my basic g**ning so I worked on the truth I spit game to the little n***az, all that I can Cause they admire my style, they like the way that I am They loved the cars, the clothes, the big wide brain I tried to teach them about the pain, that the fast cash brings But no matter what I say, they see the game everyday And the richies of the ones that have the grudge to play Get Rich or Die Trying, that's what all of them say What can I do? (YEAH!!) I've lived my f**ing life that way I'm not Role Model, my role is too dirty to follow Every phone calls another case of d**h to life I'm trying to struggle with the paradox of wrong and right And since I live by the gun, will I die by the night? It ain't easy when your lifestyle was grimy and greasy Just trying to make peace with the karma of drama, God please believe me! [Chorus: Kryst]