I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business - Timshel lyrics

I sink into the wall, And staring up i saw, Im alone in all my thoughts, Too afraid to be crazy i run, It always finds me driving right through town, With the windows down i fly, Its the feeling spring has brought, But an eye for the winter's what i got, It always finds me... So tonight, When i left here, All i said was goodbye and thats alright, No "i'll see you later", I've been trying my whole life, And if its an eye for an eye why cant i get this right, Im too slow to go fast, Im too nervous to do that, So i run, run away why should I... I take my chances slow, After all it's no one's fault, But the pain seems to crave my life, So ashamed of my weakness i lie, It always finds me... So tonight, When i left here, All i said was goodbye and thats alright, No "i'll see you later", I've been trying my whole life, And if its an eye for an eye why cant i get this right, Im too slow to go fast, Im too nervous to do that, So i run, run away why should i... Why should i? Why should i? Why should i?