Hudson - Inner Monologue Part 1 lyrics

Verse 1: I'm feeling lost in the world Lost in the void I made but can't destroy An android caught up in a sick ploy I'm a sick boy Trapped in the maze that is my head Where one wrong turn may leave me dead They say you can't die in your dreams I tried every way it seems Like I should seek help, but I'm headstrong I need self-help, a new theme song Friends say I'm stuck in a box First time for everything I should open up, talk This desire I'm experiencing For escapism from the schism For optimism from egotism Is k**ing me inside I can no longer hide From the turning tide A ship in the ocean wide Wandering blind What do you say when your dream girl Says you're exhausting When you begin to see the Pain you know you're causing The truth, who you are unfurls And it's now totally dawning You have brought yourself here No one else You have brought your own tears No one else You've let it go on Now you're frozen No Disney end here I'm lost in the world,I'm Bound to fade away like I'm Ye at the end The cost is now swirled I'm Drowned and made to say that I'm Fine in the end Cause talking is hard Opening up harder It will take a toll Bridge to my soul Break issues ama**ed Leave a painful past (Spoken:) There's no need to be worried or afraid, everything you say to me in here is confidential I can't help you unless you tell me what's wrong I can only help you if you want to be helped Are you going to say anything at all? Verse 2: This is all in your head You have yet to speak Tell him you only dread And see futures bleak You can't talk, sign of defeat Chose to walk, play it upbeat No through road, Bino tape Pour it all out on a demo tape Looking for a friend with a shoulder Pain is just getting older And the world colder See people can only take so much inaction Until your sadness becomes a detraction Protraction Distraction Fraction of the mind You have been blind Negative thoughts go round What I'd give to surround Myself with warm light You know the way forward So go for it The path straightforward So go for it But something holds you back A code that you can't crack The key is inside you Like a bad movie ending Answers are right in front you Hidden by usual suspects Plot twist Still you sit there silent, the clock ticks over It couldn't hurt to try right? Why keep your lips shut tight? Fidgeting with trepidation Defeating indignation Causation is creation Go on say it I feel so lonely and lost Go on say it My mind is so exhausted Create a newfound dialogue and Escape the inner monologue