Hourgla** - Part 2: Realization lyrics

The news dropped like a bomb And I felt numb inside How could I get cancer? I pleaded for God to give me an answer The diagnosis compelled me To look back at my life What I saw brought sorrow A troubled past and a bleak tomorrow My life is such a tragedy The common theme is misery Now my end is drawing near They say I'll die within the year I look inside and see my parents' ghosts I've become the thing I hated most The pain is tearing me in two The guilt is burning me right through Why did it take something like this To make me realize I'm just like them? I treat my kids unfairly, I know them just barely I've never shown caring, I'm sure that they hate me I look inside and see my parents' ghosts I've become the thing I hated most The pain is tearing me in two The guilt is burning me right through Is it too late to make amends? Is it too late to forgive my sins? Will my kids even care when I'm dead? Am I ever a thought in their heads?