Hotel Books - Alcoholocaust lyrics

I've spent my life trying to come to terms With the selfish fact that I don't love you back I'll use my life to find peace and hope And the [?] is just a bump in the road I'll let the telephone ring I'm too busy cleaning up the [?] I'll clean it to sobriety I'll let my instincts leave I'm too ready to bust open the lock and unleash my pity I can't hold on to an excuse that holds so dear to you I'll swallow my pride [?] to lose [?] the last bit of emotion I have left [?] Is this all I can do? [Chorus:] Every [?] Who you used to be is not who you are today You can scratch out every name And find out that you are able To still refuse of what you have to say Your opportunity for an exit presenting itself in the form of forgiveness Saying sorry over and over to the one who pulled the trigger I gave you security You wanted excitement Who you used to be is not who you are today You said your scars took away from your beauty Those scars added to your character Further proof of growth And that's beautiful to me [Chorus] Love is not a threat, sometimes it compliment It just depends where you are and who you're with d**h is not an exit, life's not repetition Keep your soul clean of your past oppression I've spent my life trying to come to terms With the selfish fact that I don't love you back I'll use my life to find peace and hope And the [?] is just a bump in the road I've spent my life trying to come to terms With the selfish fact that I don't love you back I'll use my life to find peace and hope And the [?] is just a bump in the road