Homebound - Distrait lyrics

Why do I struggle to find the words that will express my true and honest feelings? The ones that hold some meaning Yet I digress into sh** without much substance Self-deprecation in abundance Loosened the screws from the overthinking Nothing to lose but the weight I'm bearing Lost in a world of my own, I don't know where I'm going Left feeling empty and cold but yet I'm still here breathing Trying to find a way for me to open up and let you see through my distant eyes All the things that I hide I let my woes pent up inside No means to vent I realized To everyone and to myself I'm acting like somebody else And when it rains, it pours I should've said before I let this fester, tried to pretend that this was never on my mind Look into my eyes Show me what I hide When I can't let my feelings be known I let this sadness swallow me whole Watch the light fight the gloom Or the cold halt the bloom on the dreams that I thought would help me grow