Hollow Bones - The November Diaries lyrics

I am selfishness incarnate, self loathing personified This is gonna be, a f**ing nightmare I'd say I don't feel right in my own skin But honestly that's not enough to describe how bad it's been Living with myself these past few years I am ashamed I'm at the end of my rope Surrounded on all sides by sharks These old sails are getting tired Carrying the weight Of these beautiful bones The weight of these beautiful bones, and I'm tired Of dragging everyone down with me Down with me - The guilt like lead in my guts The guilt like lead in my guts I have no one to blame but myself This is my life and it's all I've known I have no one to blame but myself This is my life and it's all I've known It's all I've known... The truth is, when you dance with the Devil You wait for the song to stop The truth is, when you dance with the Devil You wait for the song to stop I am selfishness incarnate, self loathing personified I've spent all my time looking for my reflection In those I love But I'll always be let down that way, because what I'm looking for Should be in me Why isn't it in me? It should be in me Why isn't it in me? It should be in me I feel like a raw nerve Exposed, alienated, with no purpose, no direction Nowhere to feel at home What happened to the courage I grew up telling myself that I had? What happened to the courage I swore I had? I am the voice of nightmares And I am never satisfied