Hex Rated - Suicide lyrics

{chorus: yoshi (x2)} I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in I used to have hopes now i'm filled with poison Why would i live with this buildup while it's corroded I stand with my head in my hands i'm thinking life is hopeless {verse 1: hex rated} I'm at the end of my road i got no hope left This life is a test i failed with an f Grab the rope what's next? Rigor mortis i'm a corpse and i was born for this death (born for this death) Slit veins blood drips my brain's sick sh*t Every day i wish that i didn't have this fu*king chemical imbalance Suicide all the time steady running through my mind Slit my wrists or stay alive? I don't really know why i feel this way Steady stuck in a maze likе it's groundhogs day No joy no light just dark like night I'm killing everybody on sight i might writе rhymes to the rhythm and end my life End your life? I think i might think i might try suicide Suicide? Yeah that's right no more pain no more life I could end it all in just one night with a razor blade wrist or a shotgun blast {dialogue} Therapist: shotgun blast? Hex rated: yeah that's right. hey yo blizz record this sh*t Blizz: fu*k this fu*k music i'm out. where's my fu*king gun fu*k it! Audience: no! holy- no! (screaming) {chorus: yoshi (x2)} I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in I used to have hopes now i'm filled with poison Why would i live with this build upwhile it's corroded I stand with my head in my hands i'm thinking life is hopeless {verse 2: yoshi and friends} Is it really worth it to be staying alive? Same question every day when i open my eyes I would rather sleep than to celebrate life Lately i'm not motivated to write Not myself locked away tight Not so well hate seeing the good die Can't say that i've been having a good time Everyday i wish that me and them could've traded sides Time won't fix this it won't take me away from the pain inside But i've got an idea maybe drinking iodine I go back to having bottles of formaldehyde But there's one thing holding me back How am i supposed to tell my friends and family goodbye? Leave a rotting corpse in a closet for my homies to find? what a delight Sobbing faces reading some note explaining my suicide Or should i just disappear and leave the explanation to the minds? Ah fu*k it they probably wouldn't even notice i was gone for at least five nights I think sometimes ima fall asleep and never wake up the minute after i close my eyes Well surprise. you're still here Dammit hex you're so right Keep this razor have no fear That's the spirit homie bleed it out spill intestines With hopes to die mama don't cry But i'm saying goodnight cause i'll be gone before you can say a word I'll be dead before this day turns to night {chorus: yoshi (x2)} I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in I used to have hopes now i'm filled with poison Why would i live with this buildup while it's corroded I stand with my head in my hands i'm thinking life is hopeless {dialogue} Hex rated: yo lately i've just been so fu*king depressed that every night i have these fu*ked up dreams. i just go to the studio and then in the middle of recording i just pull out a fu*king shotgun and just blow my brains all over the roof Friend: yeah tha - that's pretty fu*ked up man Hex rated: i know right? i should probably do something about it. i've been thinking about going and getting some therapy what do you think? Friend: yeah it might work. i got a counselor lately Hex rated: really? Friend: yeah it's been doing pretty good Hex rated: fu*k all right ima go and get some therapy yo peace out (fade out)