Herafter - Why lyrics

It isnt your fault. and that is a fact. But i still can't seem to get over the past I wanted you to be my girl I would treat you just perfect, buy you diamonds and pearls But all i ever was to you was nothing but a friend, and you had no idea how much you really meant To me, please see That you are not just a person but you are also a key for me. A key that can help me find happiness and success. A key that can help me overcome this feeling that is useless, lifeless, the feeling of being depressed. At this point I couldn't lose you Id be losing to much I could never be able to break through This hurt and depression Hey one question Remember those words u told me? "I love you" yea that just made me happy now i know the truth and i feel hella crappy Only made me worse with the little hope that i had, coulda told me u loved someone else instead of f**ing up bad f** And you continue to deny. I know the truth so baby why did you lie, sometimes i can't hide the pain that i bottle up inside You are my everything but we ain't together. the only thing that i ever wanted was us to have a forever Wait Please listen, i want you to know my opinion. All OUR time that we spent was priceless, and OUR calls every night were flawless But f** all of that cuz now its just useless, you could care less about me since apperently im f**ed in the head im crazy. Imma go ape sh** wait baby. I knew something was up cuz u been acting real different lately. And that key that you were to me ain't nothing but an obstacle that will bring me down, not giving me help but causing me to have more and more f**ing break downs This situation right here yea its looking so wack if it gets even worse ill have a f**ing attack Back in the day we would always talk Night after night and we would never stop. Hours and hours of our time on the phone that was an era when i was feeling in the zone But something happened, i f**ed up It happened more then once and thats when you just had enough I went through depression, i went through some pain And after it all i didn't come out the same Depression had changed me, it tore me apart And thats when i started to do some things that werent so smart But man Lets skip this part, lets fast forward to when i stopped. Lets go right to the part where things still wouldn't stop. I got over depression. All thanks to her, this is only one example of why she is my world Wait I didn't tell u. i was still in love with the girl i was talking bout earlier But things weren't the same No not even close, and ill tell ya bout the thing that bothered me the most I was going coaSt to coast tryna bring things back, lets start with the fact that she wouldn't call me back She'd promise to facetime but it'd never happen, but when it would it there would never be any action Not like before No not at all At this point i am just feeling so small It hurts. Its stupid. All the time i spent was useless. Truth is girl. i just miss u and I can't stop thinking about u Now u might ask, how could my love Possibly last For her? Yea its long, but i ain't giving up. Im strong, it'll be worth it in the end. But then again you might just get a different boyfriend I can't say i didn't try 2 and a half years of tryna be ur guy All i gotta ask myself is why My first attempt at a rap. I gotta mix it in with some trap Put a sick beat so this sh** dont sound flat I want this to sound somewhat lit. But honestly it will most likely just end up like sh** But Let me just say Its my mistake It was always my fault, i shoulda acted like an adult Its just that nobody will love you like i do. Listen up, these are facts. Which means this is true. I wasn't tryna lose you U tell me i didn't but i could tell Cuz its not the same, my love for u ain't no game, dont play with my emotions Dont make me feel broken. I already know ive been demoted How did I know, that this year this would happen We managed to drift, now im sitting here rappin Explaining my feelings, the truth, how im hurt The fact that i feel like a pile of dirt Im sorry, i really am I got replaced by a dude named ken My own problems i made yours. I held you back from shooting for the stars and living life Living happy, i restricted ur freedom. Caused u to be snappy. Its on me. Blame it all on me Im sorry For better for worst losing you really hurts and it feels as bad one of those fairy tail curses. This might be a a** lame verse but at least i tried. Not like the effort you put in with being my friend. Its as if you wanted to have whatever we had to end Now lets quit this negativity it needs to stop i wanna see u face to face and just start our friendship from the top We'll take this step my step. We'll do it real slow Ill take even forever to get the old us back. And if i can't do that ill skip fx and head to mac. But actions speak louder then words so let me show u what i mean. Ill treat u real nice since you the girl of my dreams Yea Half a year later, hear u got a man. Hope u know he'll never treat u as well as i can But that dont matter anymore. I just hope he treats u right. And i hope that your happy with him Happy with him I saw this happening the moment u first texted him, the moment u had no more time for me Cuz u were on the phone with him Now he texts me, how i lost u to him. Notice how much i say him in this verse. He is a curse. Not to u but to me. He ruined it all, he took u away. And this is whats left of me this is all that i have to say