Henry Taylor - Greatest Enemy lyrics

Where do i begin I'm stressing from the feelings festering with in See me struggling, the guy with baggage dragged along with him Can't seem to drop it off, doesn't matter where I've been It follows after me, i sound like I'm on repeat Life goes in cycles, run in circles like a track athlete Even when I'm in the lead, I'm braced for defeat It comes naturally, but actually, I'm trying to be Up beat like this drum beat behind me Getting there gradually, dealing with insanity Mothers d**h untimely but now hopefully I'm not walking blindly so no one can find me But sometimes i want to f** it all Take some paracetamol Mix it with some alcohol, down it all But somehow I'm holding on Though I'm slowly falling off On the edge about to fall So numb, won't feel the ground at all How can i care, there trouble everywhere Yet i still despair, hate life is so unfair Want to help, but can't compare to these billionaires Yet i aware i don't know enough to interfere So i just feel useless Guess I'm just toothless Need to be ruthless But i just feel stupid Cause everything i do, I'm not good enough Not good anything, not the things that i want Apart from my artistry Yea thats part of me People can seem to see Past what they perceive And i don't seem to be At the place i need to be How can you achieve When you don't believe? But let me pick my paintbrush up a paint a pretty portrait But making art so beautiful ain't really my forte But i can tell you all about what happens everyday Guess honestys the one thing i have to display But the lies I'm surrounded, leaving me dumfounded And I'm trying to reach the top whilst I'm staying grounded Yea it takes it tole but by my words I'm bounded Until the alcohol starts getting downed and I'm going in, frozen Never been the one chosen So close to overdosing But why be sober hoping Time to rub my nose in And smell the roses Rhymes used to cope with Toes hurt from walking This same path Feeling the same wrath, sometimes i hold back I need to fight that, get on the right track Stop the cycle, like I'm a bike rack So when i do a mic grab, its like a jump in a ice bath Wake myself up like a sugar rush I am good enough I'm happy with what I've got Show I'm not ungrateful Cause I'm sounding hate filled Suicide rhymes distasteful Cause suicide is wasteful Finally seeing what i want to be Gaining the belief i need achieve All the things i have picturing in my dreams Now when i look up at the sky i can see That the stars are aligning, I'm finding my mind is providing the rhyme schemes for me sublimely Reminding inside me something Is hiding Which wants to come out, no more time residing Still trying to figure out my identity Find it accidentally, as the fight continues mentally Tryna defeat demons i cannot see Seems to be me who my greatest enemy