Henry Rollins - Volume 4 lyrics

I spend time searching my mind, walking blindly I'm a live but i don't kow why, my thoughts plague me Paranoia, fear and guilt, i hope i don't explode I'm a bomb that i can't diffuse, a gun i can't unload I don't listen, i don't know, man i don't care Talking about all the hell that you've seen, man i live there Talk to me and it goes right through, i never heard a word you said Save your breath, it's no use, you're talking to the living dead Bullet driven eyes What can you tell me I'm living in a nightmare I'm on the edge shrinking back from the ledge Looking out my window down upon my heritage Strip malls, thin walls, people paralyzed beneath the sun Why me why now I see the dirty millions and try to survive somehow Got no reason got no need I hear gunshots i hear screams What can you do to me What can you say I used to be alive but i threw it all away I used to have problems I used to live a lie But then i saw the sidewalk bleed and i watched his mother cry I used to use my mind I used to wonder why Now i go from day to day and wait around to die Like he did