Hellzwind - Psych Ward lyrics

Im a lost soul i told you I need to talk about it Never had a family and i always felt lost without it I don't wanna doubt it but my mother's love was honest Though not flawless i remember pawnin watches For 40 dollars i rolled it up that night But the only problem was i stayed up all night Lost my love for life when i looked in the mirror I had broken the trust of which nothing was clearer As my trial got nearer id speak of deception And how my twisted perception led in this direction But in reflection, i started asking my self the question I have no voice proved my choice for selection Like candidates in an election its slim pickens I took a breath before I explained the plot thickens I was pot addicted while junkies injected the needles And i saw it as a way the feds infected the people Twin towers dropped was a thousand cops added to the housing blocks But i still found a spot I used to lounge a lot till they started shootin the schools Its ironic cuz they teach to be fools Tricked to think popular is cool I sat back like this is our future Turned on the computer seen drama on the internet My brother got tagged wit pictures of his wife in the bed Givin head to the next dumb schmuck Yo f** its just useless But i could give one f** cuz I've become ruthless And the truth is without music i really ain't got sh** Working mad hours paying rent wit no profit I told her about dude in the benz wit fat pockets How the idea to rob him came in i couldn't stop it Its my logic knew I had to save the children So I took her hostage just to escape the building