Hellions - He Without Sin ii (Heels of the Hands) lyrics

I thought I was a bad person I was a dirty little girl I never once blamed the priest I hated myself I was violated I was a 9/10 year old kid Thinking he's committed the worst sin in the world I hated myself because of what happened He's gonna like this kid He told me, every time my life There's pretty much immediately self blame, self guilt I turned [?] I hated myself I would do everything everything I was very confused All my life I have struggled with intimacy To seek out and find this priest, to beg him for forgiveness As I was [?] This is what happens when people love each other Whether or not he was [?] This is love this is natural this is normal [?] I didn't love myself for it I didn't think anyone would love me It wasn't his fault, it was mine