Helio Flanders - Foreign Complaint lyrics

I got something to write before this letter slips in I got no one by my side and finally now, I feel fine As the leaves are falling, as the sun is going down My eyes are in the wind, but every summer they melt down Here no one knows my name, they never see me around I pretend I'm from Spain and I don't even go out Never thought it would be so hard to live in other town And I always remind of you when the sleep gets me down Every dusk I watch, well, it always leaves me sad 'cause that time that I got you, the dawn was the time to bed And I never saw the dawn anymore, now I've got to crawl To get up from the bed, and then get off of the ground I'm not looking for, I couldn't even get a job Lately I'm too weak and I still got the bucks you gave me People scream that I'm a slob, I pretend it's not with me I just keep my face straight, with my eyes staring at my feet Sometimes I miss my rock'n'roll records and my friends But as long as I will die, they'll take me out of their heads I'm not saying I was unwanted, it's just something usual Maybe I never really liked 'em but I miss them all Last week I went to a bar, and there was no one at it And I've been thinking how sometimes love's hard to fit I remembered when I was a child and how beautiful was my hair And when I discovered that love is something hard to bear But when the bar closed down, I started my thinking again And going back home I cried a little bit but then I cleaned my face with memories from my mom and my dad And for a quick moment I forgot that they are dead I heard someone saying love's bitter, well, I didn't disagree But later when I was sleeping I've been waken by a dream I don't remember well, but I only know it was about you Then I spent all the day upset 'till accept I love you But you know life goes on, as it goes on your life I'd be lying if I said that someday I'll be back 'cause these words they haunt myself, I prefer to ignore the pain 'cause I'll always love you, but I don't want to see you again