Heiruspecs - Elliott lyrics

At work my mom had called me with some unreal news It seems the nurse had called her earlier the facts were all confused But the point of conversation had revolved around you If you won't ask me for help yourself of course I'm gona refuse See I don't know you anymore, I won't walk in your shoes I cannot sing your blues, I will not drink your booze And you don't know me anymore, you never even knew You missed as I grew, you ditched what I been through On the phone your voice was never there I even called your friends To let you know that you would have to be the one to try to make amends As I recite this, I know that there will never be and end I've never really cared too much before, but things can change within I may pretend you meant nothing i've inherited your lier Engraved within my memory you sitting on that chair What did I do? Why am I so perfect? How about Andy? He's a b**h just like your mother, here Chris go buy some candy And thats f**ed up. f** you. Die too Only momma knows why she had stood so long there beside you There on that chair, glaring at us like only you can Staring, flaring nostrils like the cape of a villain As a child I remember floor lamps brown stripes Open packs of cigarettes and back seats to dodge vans Visiting apartments with your hiding girlfriends Mom and Andy crying too much and me with them Old enough to an*lyze now and thinking awfully hard It seems to me a wife and two sons ain't easy to discard You came back at night to start fights and mom had stood her guard Six foot seven with a piece of wood from the yard I faked sleep, take deep breaths, you disappeared After one year zero just a pillow full of mother tears Oh yeah, I didn't know it at the time but that b**h you left Had barely kept the house and was now drowning within your debt I don't pretend to hate my dad I don't pretend to like him When I think about what I just heard I wish that I could fight him Why would you call me seven years without something? You f**ing, drunk don't ever call again thanks for nothing If you liked us all along then you must be dumb as hell Vision clouded by the whiskey you were picking from the well You watched TV ignoring me who cares you might as well I hope one day you wake up and find yourself in hell I don't pretend to hate my dad I don't pretend to like him When I think about what I just heard I wish that I could fight him Why would you call me seven years without something? You f**ing drunk, don't ever call again thanks for nothing If you liked us all along then you must be dumb as hell Vision clouded by the whiskey you were drinking from the well You watched TV ignoring me who cares you might as well I hope one day you wake up and find yourself in hell