Heavenly (UK) - Me And My Madness lyrics

I hear string in songs when they're not there I see things in darkness when i'm scared I feel cold out when it's sunny Make a joke and laugh about it Feel like you're a moving target Wish all this had never started Cut my hair and then I cut my skin Hurt myself instead of hurting him Feels like it's a nightmare I'm in Say one thing and think another Stay in bed cos you're not bothered Pray that it will soon be over He told you that he loved you he'd stay with you oh you're a fool don't believe what people say they never stay anyway He kissed me and then he stayed the night I can't see that things could work out right seems as if I'll mess up some way Hold his hand the world seems all new Understand things when he's near you Now he's gone it all seems untrue He left her he said he cared that he'd be there when you're scared (Dont believe what those people say it's lies anyway) I don't think they will/ I just can't sit still Funny kind of ill/ I don't wanna think about it Showed me that your love/ but it's not enough I can't ever trust/ I don't wanna think about it You're there by my side/ then I asked you why Could it be you lied?/ I don't wanna think about it. My phone rings but there's no one there (hello?) All my dreams have vanished in thin air Was it real when you said you'd care Once you kissed or did you dream it? Bought a gift but he's not seen it How'd you know he didn't mean it? When he's gone it all goes wrong Smashed up your home now you're alone All of what you said/ goes round in my head when i lie in bed/ i don't wanna think about it i'm too paranoid/ you could get annoyed/ so did other boys/ i don't wanna think about it. heard it all before/ gets to be a bore God my head is sore/ I don't wanna think about it