Heatmiser - It's Not A Prop lyrics

I'll be shutting down soon Didn't mean to be so let down I don't know why he left the room Couldn't keep his attention I'll be switching off soon It's never going to happen Feel like i've been put in my place A secret admirer for life The drink in my hand ain't no prop It's what's left of my collapsing night Who do i lean my ladder against To get over my embarra**ment I want him without regret I want it written in cement Such a s**er for attention To wipe the dust off my still life The drink in my hand ain't no prop It's what's left of my collapsing night I'm not moving I can't calm down I won't say anything I won't remember any names I'm not moving I can't calm down I won't remember anything I'm just going back to bed Prosecute myself all night I'm my own biggest threat Said nothing wrong but i can't get it right