HB - Abandoned lyrics

They heard it all All those who knew me When I received Your holiness When you gave me new freedom Took me to Your Kingdom I spent all my time around You They all could see As things kept turning And I returned to my old ways To the weakest and the dearest, all my nearest I caused grievances and heart ache Bowing down again I have no strength to live in today Jesus, was I left behind or Have you no space in my heart? Trading in for slavery A freedom dearly bought I can't rid the shackles off me Jesus, would you take me home now? I have no more strength to care I cannot and I will not I leave all this behind me There is no way returning There is no God left for me You made me empty Guess, to fill me But sin was able to survive I lost my faith in strength That is found in repentance Although I wished to find Your face I guess this world Needs someone wretched Reminder to blessed ones The wish of our Creator Was to cease my failure And to cure this twisted nature Where's the strength to go on? I have no friend to comfort my soul Tell me what kind of a hero Stumbles on the smallest rock Dies on way to battlefield Ends up a laughing stock? Achieving merely evil Maybe I was duly judged for Mocking God's own Holy Ghost This mighty warrior of the Lord Shall in flames of hell be lost Where there is no way returning There is no God left for me