Hazard The Illmatic - I had to change lyrics

Verse 1 For the past two years, I've been so silent Tryna fight with every negative thought Me against myself, the hardest fight I've ever fought Moment of truth, I apologize For misleading you all Against all odds, I faked it tryna walk tall No one to turn to, Friends of fam? Not even God was the one to call Wish to be like the varsity fees, get up and never fall Self esteem crushed, no one believed in me These walls carved in, can anybody hear me? I started questioning religion Is he real? Is he fake? Can he hear me? My mind never rested, Busier than the Monday morning trafic I started slacking in my studies, f** that sh** was tragic Started smoking weed tryna forget about this pain At the same time it f**ed up with my brain I couldn't keep up with it, So I vented to my homiie N2kay Hook Like A caterpillar to a bu*terfly, boy I had to change Friends to enemies real quick, damn it feels so strange X2 Feels so strange, damn it feels so strange Feels so strange Who would stay the same in this f**ed up world. Verse 2 Look at the sh** that I've been through, I survived by God's Grace It's my own life, so imma run it at my own pace Forget hoes, my dream is the only thing I'm tryna chase I've changed, there are few chapters that I had to erase I'm here tryna create a better life for my momma, So imma get that degree Life ain't no sunshine and rainbow boy, I have to agree But mom, it's what you make of it, It's how you decide to live it My sister just turned 16, man, I just can't believe it I Freed myself from depression, sadness and anxiety Plus I'm no longer a slave to society Hazard The-Illmatic look around you boy, They don't love you in this cold world Fake smiles, they don't love you in this cold world (in this cold world) They don't love you in this cold world (in this cold world) Hook Like A caterpillar to a bu*terfly, boy I had to change Friends to enemies real quick, damn it feels so strange X2 Feels so strange, damn it feels so strange Feels so strange Who would stay the same in this f**ed up world