Haste - The Absentee lyrics

And its felt like lead To think to let anything else in It is too heavy to stand I won't push out Please God this tears me apart On the inside You quit and you s** And you are still the same ...As far as I can see I wish to breathe I can't take this change I would rather stay here With my hands gripping my throat What now? You find yourself on the outside? What about them? What about her? What about all of your responsibility? I find this in blood For some...easy to walk away I find that I can never break God! This hurts It tears me apart on the inside I've quit, we are done It seems that now youre the absentee I still feel so much for you