Hashu - Fitzcarraldo lyrics

I f**ing s** at singing Life is rough [x2] And i can't control where my mind goes Don't know if i should follow it And if i follow it would you follow me Ill give all to you You have all of me And if i loose my way will you get lost with me [Verse 1] I feel the pressure setting in I think I'm about to explode So i haven't talked about the days i had a house not a home But now I'm out and I'm grown See the whole town at a show Say f** it all as far as counseling goes I almost lost myself trying to save dummies Who would never try to help But only take from me But it didn't make sense not to make money So I've been starving everyday To get this cake coming And now they all talk sh** Like "man this kids a f**ing joke" "he should just give up his hope" "that sh** he makes is nothing dope" But know you'll never be as good as him You couldn't put the work in Excuses you always pull them in When you were my age you were just partying and fooling in You seem me and get mad Because you see where you could've been I had a dream And i worked every f**ing day I never cared what people say Or when they stared because of state Always working Hardly eating Never sleeping Always dreaming Always kept a vision with me When the stress against me began I don't know moderation Always working till exhaustion I've been flowing like a faucet Trying to earn this f**ing boss sh** I was in a f**ing coffin 10/10/97 A day later my mom gave birth to a mother f**ing legend Don't you get it i was meant for this sh** Its been a year since somebody said to mess with the kid I had to prove them all wrong thats what the sentences did And I'm about to leave this earth I'm simply ending this sh** I'm trying not to loose my mind And k** the demons inside Keep my vision ahead of me And my dreams on the side of me Lite a cig and kind of hope For these thoughts deprived open For this line that i just wrote When i'm driving i just choke Cause i'm drowning in my head And i'm trying to climb a float But i struggle even harder when i'm trying to find some hope Cause i realize that there is none there whole livings is to focus So that don't f**ing care Then i hope that someone cares I've lost my mind but I followed it Now I'm all alone and you're the cause of it You couldn't fall for sh** You never fall for sh** I would've given you everything Now its all to this [Katherine] All i know is that i need to go on by myself [Hashu] Get lost trying to find myself And i never see an angle stepping foot in my hell They try to tell me that i can't I try to tell them I'm the man I'm just sticking to the plan [Katherine] How will spaceship add up to all the things I've been through Look at what you didn't do Now you say that they've gone miss you Its to late for that cause i fly up(x2) A a a Ill fly away A a a Ill fly away [Hashu} Way and as the story unfolds Of a legend in the making And the story he's told Just a kid 18 years old Hes trapped inside the world thats made him cold